Amelia “Amy” Jacobs is not meant to be a star if she can’t handle bad press and rumors. It just how it goes nowadays. Every dara encounters bad press, even the most angelic ones. If you don’t have or can’t develop a thick skin for this industry, you’re not gonna make it.
When rumors about her being a drug dealer in Phuket and other negative stories about her emerged, former Miss Teen Thailand 2006 and now leading lady for Ch7, Amelia “Amy” Jacobs became suicidal and physically self-destructive. She didn’t want think about it, but couldn’t help herself.
“I don’t want to think about it. If I think about it, I would get upset, why would I think about it. I didn’t do it. The news was too much. If I could die, I would have die for them already. How did they know that I sold anything? And how much I sold. If I did something like that, I would have had a lot of money by now.”
Amy was very baffled by the drug rumors. “When news about that came out, I was very confuse, how did that come out when I didn’t do anything. When I came back to work this time around, there hasn’t been news like that at all. My mother is more upset than I am about this. Personally, I never knew, someone would go tell my mother about the rumors and my mother would come crying to me. I would tell her not to think of it. Everyone experiences it (meaning bad press). If I reacted, nothing good would come of it. I didn’t know how the rumors came about. Regardless, it’s up to people’s opinions. The channel elders have not called me in for a chat. However, I am a person who thinks too much. I don’t tell anyone, I keep it balled up inside.”
Her friends never asked her about the rumors because they know she is overly sensitive about it. “My friends did not dare bring up this topic with me. They feared I would think too much about it. I did ask them first if they read the news about this, they would agree, the media has gone too far. If I could die, I would have die for them. I didn’t want to stay…I don’t know…it was too much, I didn’t want to…I don’t know. Right now, my parents are watching over me a lot because I’m a person who thinks too much. I thought too much even before my car accident (the near fatal one). I liked to hurt myself (crap, did she just say that), I took pills, beat myself up, poke myself. Crazy kids, that is how they do it (laughs). The drugs that I took were taken to help me relax. Paracetamol something like that. I have taken it for awhile now, even before my car accident. I am a person who thinks too much. If I argued with my friends, I would take those.”—I don’t think that was the drug she took, Paracetamol is an over the counter painkiller medicine, harmless. It’s like an aspirin or Tylenol.
Amy sought help from a psychiatrist. Her doctor said she can’t change, it’s just part of her personality.
“I have seen a psychiatrist, it has helped. The doctor said, it’s part of my personality. Whatever I do, I can’t change it. If I changed it, I would turned into someone else. Not myself anymore. Now I am better. I can handle myself better. I don’t think too much now. Why should I think about, it would just make me stressed out for no reason and make me unable to work. I should just focus on my work. I haven’t done those things in a long time now. My doctor told my mom that to be like this, it’s not worth it. Why would she want to risk her daughter’s life again. It made my mother think. At first, I wanted to let myself go, get fat, and not come back. However, there were many people still waiting for me, so I wanted to work. If given the opportunity, I would want to do it. I was determined to come back.”